The road has become longer and more bumpy.

The bone scan I had done on Saturday was GOOD! It came back nice and clean. :)

Monday - A day I wish never happened. It was awful. It was human torture. Almost the worst pain I've been in. Kidney stones was right there with it. Anyway it was pretty bad. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.
I thought and was told it would be done under twilight. I can totally handle this. EGH WRONG!!!!!
The doctor comes into the room to give the details for the procedure and answer any questions I may have. He explained that I would NOT be under any sedation or twilight. That in fact I would be awake and aware of exactly what was happening. That there was a 25% chance my lung would collapse and that there is a 35% chance of internal bleeding. All of which would be normal and there would be nothing they could really do for it. Oh yea! Who the hell signed me up for this? The Dr. was very matter of fact seemed to have no feelings or sympathy. At one point I said so your telling me your going to stick needles through my chest to my lungs and I'm going to feel all of it. Well we will give you some paid medication that should help. Ya let me just tell you the "Pain meds" he should of just saved them for the next patient it did NOTHING!!!!!  I had a complete and total break down during that procedure. I knew it was coming eventually. I just didn't think it would be at that moment as I had four needles sticking out of my chest. The nurse says to me as I'm balling Whats wrong? Lets just say she is lucky I couldn't move at that moment. The last four weeks of my life have been very hard and this procedure put the icing on the cake. It was a reality check. This is only the beginning of what is to come. The worst part was when he removed the last needle. He said to me ok on three big breath in. Oh Dear GOD HELP ME! He pulled it out as fast and hard as possible. I'm not sure how my lung was not dangling on the end of it. I had extreme back pain. The nurse said yep its normal we probably hit a nerve. Oh gee well thanks can you fricking give me something to at least take the edge off. Two pain pills later still had an extreme amount of pain. It was very hard to breathe. I also had gargling of the blood from my lungs. That was disgusting and scary. So long as it was not more that 2-3 tablespoons of blood at a time it was considered normal.  After the procedure I went to recovery for several hours. So long as I didn't move and kept my breathing suppressed I was ok. When it came time to stand up forget it. The drive home was a long torturous one. BUT BUT BUT I made it I'm here. Never EVER again. Oh the kicker was he told me there is a 10% chance this would need to be repeated. Hahahahahahahahahahaha ya right NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!   

This I thought was going to be the last test. But once again I am WRONG!

Today 8/25 Got the "CALL" yet again. I have a carcinoma tumor in the left lung. AHHHHHHHH!!!!
My treatment has changed I will start Chemo asap. My first Chemo session will be on 9/2.  I will be scheduled for lung surgery asap and then will go back to finish chemo then the bi lateral mastectomy with reconstruction. When healed from all that a Hysterectomy. So when its all said and done I will be a bald, half lunged, postmenopausal woman with a great looking rack! :)  Sounds like a ton of fun huh? BRING IT!!!!!!

So since chemo is starting sooner than I had planned I thought I would try and make this loosing the hair process as FUN as possible. Any ideas? I thought about getting several different hair cuts and taking fun girly pics with lots of makeup. Wig Shopping? MMMMMM not something I thought I'd ever do but theres a first for everything. WOOOOO they are expensive. I'm gonna go check out a wig place in Algonquin tomorrow. My understanding is they have over 2000 wigs.    

I will be having a echocardiogram sometime over the next couple days, and will attend a chemo therapy teaching class where I will get my chemo schedule, prescriptions and details of my visits to the Kellogg Cancer Center.

So until next time, Love you ALL! Mmmmmmwah!